and never coming out again.
-just because I felt afraid-
I would hold flowers then
It would all be over then,
my passion for light and darkness.
I'm more than sure you know
that nothing exists without the light,
but light can not be proved
without the darkness.
It wouldn't reflect on the clouds,
or would stars shine the same
if it wasn't for the darkness
of our solemn universe?
Are feelings and hopes and dreams
and passion and everything that is impossible
the light in the darkest of our soul?
Can we see ourselves through that dark,
using the lantern of our feelings?
vanished.
touch that fragile portrait of myself,
Couldn't I stop
touching that false image of myself
to only feel the rejection I can sense?
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-What are you afraid of?
-I'm not afraid of anything.
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(I'm sorry for the extended self portraits- it makes me feel quite egocentric looking at it, but I only realised the plethora of my face after finishing the post!I hope it doesn't look that boring and repetitious to you as it now seems to me!
Anyway, I wish everyone is fine and has a more magnificent time than I do! It's difficult to cope with school stuff as the requirements grow harder and harder and my willingness to compromise with the fact that I really-need-to-concentrate-on-my-studies-instead-of-daydreaming-and-grouching-about-everything gets lesser and lesser.Plus, I realised how much I want to study Art and devote the rest of my life to it... but I don't know exactly what I want to do. At least I have lots of options to choose from: cinema, theatre, painting, photography... I wish I'll get the chance to do all of them-one thing I'm determined to do in my life is to fill it with the most exciting things I can possibly do. I don't want it to be wasted in monochrome habbits and rituals, as many people end up doing... -maybe this is one of my most positive thoughts and prospects,as most of the time I feel pessimistic and negative! Or at least, that's what I have been told...)
So, watching 'Arizona dream' -an amazing film by Emir Kusturica, with its soundtrack composed by Goran Bregovic- the other day made me really want to...
...build my own flying machine in 5 simple steps:
''I've never built a flying machine before,
but how hard could it be?''
''I'm ok, I'm just...
It's too late, the dream's over.
I've got to start climbing...
It's a long way, Axel,
the world.''
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